Is it time? Do I dare?
Should I go and share?
Is it worth it?
Is it worth unraveling the carefully built universe?
It is worth inferring what wouldn’t reverse?
Or should I just let it go?
Knowing that nothing that you know
Will ever change your heart and soul.
But should I? Maybe just try?
Before you do what’s on your mind.
Is this it? Has the moment come?
Is this what we’d been living for?
Is this what I’ve been running from?
Turning blind to, avoiding and delaying.
Is the moment finally here?
Is this what I always knew?
And yet never knew?
The moment when you will voice the truth
Without even knowing what’s there within
Me, my heart and in my bones.
So will you say it now?
Oh, don’t, let the moment pass; don’t dwell.
There’s too much left in this empty shell
It’s looming big, like the sun at night
Somewhere behind the moon.
My days are spent doing nothing
But hide from what roams outside
Openly and unapologetic, like a beast
Searching for the prey that’s too easy
To even be chased.
Behind the pretentious ignorance
Under the obvious oblivion.
I keep hiding, waiting and scaring
The moment that you would hound
To rape and leave me on the cold ground.
I want to breathe, like just breathe.
And keep breathing, that’s all.
Without pain, without efforts
Without struggle, without gasping
Just simply and ceaselessly breathe
I need to just exist, you see.
Living seems too hard beloved
And death yet another far cry.