You were my friend.
Then why did you lie to me
And crowned her with truth and honesty
That you deprived me of?
You gave her for free
All I had worked my way to earn from you.
I had tried to love you with my life
But you chose her partial company
Every time and anytime- why?
I can’t blame you.
I can’t blame her.
Like you still say- It’s my fault.
And it’s to have ever trusted her and you
They have always told me not to.
How can she do that to me?
Why would she do that to me?
I had asked myself again and again.
I have hated myself.
I have punished myself.
To have ever loved her;
To have ever trusted her;
To have hoped her to be different
From what they say and believe.
But she ain’t.
And neither are you.
You blame me for the heartache
You blame me for the mistakes
That came out as a reaction
To her unexpected betrayal
A year has gone by
And you still say the same
Why can’t you see what I felt and feel?
Why can’t you see what she did to me?
Why do you still choose her over me?
I have been deceived not just by a friend
But someone who shares my blood.
I had called you to my home
I had called you my own- my family
How can you rob me of what I have ever known?
You said you have been hurt before-
Shouldn’t that have stopped you from hurting me?
You said you have been deceived before.
Shouldn’t that have stopped you from betraying me?
I had justified you over and again
Yet you kept entrapping me in your games.
And you my friend…
I had loved you.
And I had loved her.
But now you shall not get the same from me.
I do love you still,
But we will never be all I had hoped us to be.